I am a carer for my disabled daughter. I also have health problems of my own. I was on ESA, my daughter received DLA and we had tax credits. We got by together, she got what she needed, and so did I. Then earlier this year I missed an ESA appointment due to being ill. They took it off me completely. I have elevated it to tribunal and am still waiting for a date for my case to be heard. My daughter left college in July, meaning she is entitled to benefits in her own right now in the form of ESA. I no longer get tax credits or child benefit, or the meagre amount from her absent father in child support. I was so ill that I decided to ask social services to deal with my daughter's finances. She was entitled to her benefits from the beginning of September, yet we are still waiting for the DWP to make a decision. Then we have to wait for social services to assess her because she has to contribute to her care costs. She has had no money in almost 2 months.
I am currently scraping by on income support. I do claim carer's allowance, but because she spends some time in residential care and some with me, I have to claim for the time she's with me. I have JUST got the carer's allowance money for the dates from May-August. I have to drive 120 miles a week to get my daughter from her residential placement to home and back, then she has a schedule of activities over the weekend which can't be changed as it would upset and confuse her too much. So for the last 7 weeks I have had to pay for fuel, her activities, food for us both and the usual bills out of the basic amount of income support that is meant to be just enough for one person to survive on.
I was referred to the food bank 3 weeks ago when I broke down and admitted how hard it was getting. I had to miss one of my daughter's weekend visits because I simply couldn't afford it. Because of this, I miss out on a week's worth of carer's allowance, and she misses out on her DLA, which is also only payable for the time she spends at home with me.
I was so grateful to the food bank, I was embarrassed but humbled, and I have worked hard on making the most of the donated food so not a scrap is wasted. I would like to thank them for all their hard work, they are doing such amazing work. But when the Welfare State was set up, it was supposed to be there to prevent this. It was designed to help those in most need, to stop them from starving, to give them a basic standard of life so that they didn't live in a tent on the streets. It was meant to help avoid poverty, malnutrition and unnecessary suffering. But this government has decided to open up that hole at the bottom of the ladder so that those people on the bottom rung can now be knocked off into the poverty that the Welfare State was designed to avoid.
This is not about immigrants, it's not about junkies, it's not about lazy layabouts pretending to be sick and disabled, it's about ordinary people who worked in the steel works, or BHS, or any other business which has failed or been sold off by the government and their super rich cronies. People who have gone from highly trained and skilled jobs into having nothing. And it's about the government deliberately sabotaging the Welfare State, making it go slower and slower, cutting people off from the support they desperately need or making them wait for weeks with nothing so they end up in debt and struggling to feed their children. It's what they said they would do, offload as much as possible onto charities, no matter what suffering they inflict.
If it wasn't for me having to make sure my daughter got what she needs, I wouldn't be here now. I've contemplated suicide, I've thought about stealing, I've even thought about prostitution because of this situation. In the end I sold clothes and other belongings to get a few quid to keep me going and make sure I don't end up in court as a criminal. I'm just an ordinary person, I'm not scum, I'm not a thief or a junkie, but when you are desperate you end up resorting to desperate means.